Monday, October 08, 2007

So much to do, so little time...

My memory is sketchy. It always has been. Some have said it's lacking selectively, as opposed to physiologically. Either way. If I remember your birthday, you are special indeed.


Therefore, I have a list many pages long on purple paper that I have kept for years hidden in a drawer of my desk. It is a list of many of the experiences I've had thus far in life, some good, some not so good. However, if an event makes the list, it's meant to be remembered for reasons that may only ever be known to me, though many of the lessons are obvious. For example, if I've seen the devil in a black cat sitting ominously on the top of a car, I learn to avoid cats. Remember that cat, mom? That was one evil cat.

I was adding to this list today, as I do every few months, and I couldn't help but to look back at old entries. I won't say that these are my favorite entries; they're quite random actually, and certainly less personal than many. But here are a dozen life events that struck me today-with a little bit of commentary:
1. I've watched the Millenium sunrise on the border of Mexico with my husband.

2. I've ridden a bamboo raft to the Golden Triangle.

3. I thought I was experiencing the second coming while sitting in a church alone in Japan reading my Bible. I wasn't. Just an earthquake. I did actually walk outside however, once the shaking stopped, and pondered how odd it was that in a land of Shintos, I was the one left behind. Oh you laugh, but if you were the one looking out into an empty street, you might have really regretted that time you cheated on a speed math test in third grade too.

4. I've held the cold hand of a dear friend in a coffin. Thank God that's only happened once.

5. I've kissed my husband at night on top of the Eiffel Tower. Everyone should do that once in their lifetime. Not kiss my husband, persay, but your own husband...or wife. Whatever.

6. I've thrown up into Lake Geneva in Switzerland with a friend after eating waaaaay too much Toblerone chocolate. Obvious lesson here: go easy on the chocolate, even if it is the best in the world.

7. I've been lost in the jungles of Thailand on a wayward elephant...and ended up getting very wet in the Mae Taeng River.


8. I learned how to cook from a dear French friend and our Vietnamese/Chinese housekeeper...in Cambodia. No, girls, I may not know what to do with cupcake wrappers, but I can make some yummy springrolls, mango shakes and poir belle helene for dessert! ;)

9. I've won a little money pool sharking in a few shady places. (Steve, I'll never be as good as you. I like to actually give the other guy a chance to scratch before I clear the table. But you know what I do better than you? Ski. Yep. I don't puke my way down the mountain. ;) )



10. I "meowed" with an old man high on opium outside of a club in Rangoon. Really, he was "meowing", like a cat, and together we made cat harmony. We meowed John Denver's "Take Me Home" (or is it titled, "West Virginia"?) It was bizarre, and yes I was sober, though probably a little high on second hand contaminates. I think my name is on a brick outside of a little dive called Mr. Guitar down the road from the "Tooth Pagoda", just in case I ever wonder, "Did that really happen?" I can go back and check.

11. I baptized a woman in a pig trough in South America after she came up to me and said, "I'm here for the free gift." My response? "Uhhhh...OK. Why, let me tell you about that free gift...I'm sure I have Romans 6 in your language here somewhere..." Funny how simple evangelism can be contrasted with how complicated we often make it.

12. I've pretended I was Princess Grace with a friend at the palace in Monaco, complete with haughty princess walking and British accents. Though, Princess Grace was American, and my friend and I both were fluent in French which would have been more realistic, but whatever. We were regal for an afternoon.

13. I've had a son come to me with an ouchie and ask me to kiss it because he really believed that if I did that, it would be all better.

OK, so that's a baker's dozen, and the python experience in Vietnam wasn't listed, but what are some of your stand-out memories? I know many of you have lived events that I could only dream of that I will want to add to my "Things to do before I die" list. Yes, I like lists. Speaking of great accomplishments, way to go on the ten miler this weekend, Kim and the lesson learned. You are amazing!

Monday, October 01, 2007

Peek-A-Boo, it's October!

October...

Thus begins my favorite season-autumn. Hopefully, the temperature will drop from the eighties we're still experiencing here, rain will fall, and we'll be blessed with some cool rainy autumn nights so that I can sit on my screened-in porch with a cup of tea and good poetry (Frost or Neruda or Yates...) listening to the rain until the wee hours of the morning. Ahhh...heaven.

(Side Note: baby gates are intended to keep babies out of rooms. This is an unmet goal in our house, except when they both try to climb over at once and realize that they can't swing their legs with the other one sitting there. They find themselves stuck. I won't tell you how long I let them sit there. Let's just say that I enjoyed lunch this day without any little hands reaching for food off of my plate...)
October is also AIDS Awareness month, Hispanic Heritage Month, National Book Month, and National Popcorn Popping Month.

We're in Ramadan right now; Eid is on the 12th. Happy Eid all you Muslims. I think the Jewish holiday Sukkot fell at the end of Sept. this year. We Christians have what this month...Halloween? And let's not forget Columbus Day. There's nothing like overtaking a country from the natives to show brotherly love. Oh, I crack myself up...

Good thing October is also Sacrasm Awareness Month. Finally, a month for me.

The 17th is the Day for the Eradication of Poverty. If that happens in a day, please let me know. I'll begin looking to the skies for Jesus' return on the 18th, which also happens to be Bald and Free Day.

While we're in the spirit of this, let's invent one called, "Don't Buy Your Kids Toys Because They'd Rather Have Fun in a Box Day".

The 2nd is Name Your Car Day; the 7th is World Smile Day, and the 21st is Count Your Buttons Day. Those are real. Really. Look it up.

The Full Moon is on the 25th, and Daylight Savings Time doesn't roll around until Nov. 4th this year.

With enough prayer and heavenly intervention, we may be able to add Burmese Independence Day to the list, though Gambari doesn't seem to be having much success with diplomatic negotiations as of yet.

What other holidays are in October? Timmy Comes Home Day! I can't say on the world wide web on which day we will celebrate this momentous occassion, but barring any unforeseen circumstances, we are in the final month of living as a family separated. There is a light shining brightly at the end of this lonely tunnel, and November will be met with a family reunited.



Enjoy your October, and don't forget to name your car, eat some tacos-after sundown or after the 12th if your Muslim, smile, read a book, count your buttons, kiss your spouse home from war, and oh yes...end global poverty.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Burma update

Updates for Wed: Protest numbers were down to about 10,000 from 100,000 in Rangoon Wed. Riot police were set up at several points along the route, and they blocked off Shwedagon pagoda. Live rounds were fired over their heads. Many-monks and nuns-were beaten, tear gas was used, and between 100 and 300 of them were arrested. BBC is reporting one dead.The monks strongly urged civilians not to march with them this day, though it is estimated that about 5,000 members of the NLD did. So....it could have been worse? However, the condition of the "bloody monks" is unknown, the general public is outraged that force was used against the Sangha, and the country is still far from freedom. The links below will take you to reports about yesterday's events. There are no videos of this, only pictures. There are no reporters in country right now, apparently. For this reason, it is still unknown what happened in Mandalay yesterday, and several other smaller towns where marchers numbered in the 10,000's, and crack down was expected. Regime violence will certainly be the most brutal where there aren't video cameras.



and http://www.bbc.com/ This is the BBC's top story. Click on video/listen, and you can watch their video.
President Bush announced more severe sanctions against Burma today. Of course, sanctions have put factories and market places out of business, leaving tens of thousands to starve to death. The military is funded by China.

AND it is rumored that Suu Kyi has been moved form her house to Insein prison. Insein can only be compared to , I don't know...hell.

Here is the copy of an AP article on http://www.burmacampaign.org.uk/pm/weblog.php?id=P278
Burma regime planning to infiltrate demonstrations to spark violence
24 Sep 2007
Burma Campaign UK sources in Rangoon have reported that soldiers have been ordered to shave their heads, in possible preparation for infiltrating peaceful demonstrations. They would start rioting or attacking police, providing the regime with a pretext for a brutal crackdown on protestors. Sources indicate that soldiers from Light Battalion 77 in Rangoon have been given the order. Sources also report that the regime has ordered 3,000 monks’ robes from a factory in Rangoon. It is a tactic the regime has used in the past, including at the Depayin massacre in 2003, during which Aung San Suu Kyi was arrested. Regime militia dressed as monks were involved in the ambush which left up to 100 democracy activists dead. Despite the widespread expectations that the regime will use violence to suppress protest, the international community has been remarkably silent, with the French government being the only one to make a strong statement warning of consequences if the regime responds with violence. ASEAN has also expressed concern. “The regime has been held in check by the peoples’ respect for the monks andthe fact that the world is watching, but the scale of protests means they will be looking for options that allow them to justify a crackdown,”said Mark Farmaner. “The UN Secretary General and other world leaders must speakout and make it clear that a violent response in unacceptable. At the momentthe international community seems to be willing to watch from the side lines as the regime moves closer to a massacre. If the regime does attack protestors, this will have been one of the most widely predicted massacres in recent history, and makes a mockery any government’s claim to becommitted to human rights.”

Friday, September 21, 2007

The Beginning of the End?

UPDATE: LATEST VIDEO (as of Sunday, Sept. 23rd): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji_R-g8T-N4 The video clip embedded here is from Thursday. The protesters are now up to 20,000, the government is rumored to be ready to use violence against them soon, and a massive protest led by the monks alliance is scheduled for Wed. this week. This hasn't happened since 1988, and even then, not to this scale. In 1988, thousands were murdered in the streets and Suu Kyi was imprisoned for the first time.

For most of you, this clip won't put you in tears. I've been on the edge of my seat however the past couple of months watching from too great a distance as these events unfold in Myanmar (Burma). (Don't worry, Timmy. I'm not jumping on a plane. Yet... J/J!) Unfortunately, I have to utilize the BBC to get information as American networks do not cover the story. The only American in the public eye who seems overtly interested is Jim Carey, of all people, who put out a public plea on YouTube last month. I was estatic while searching videos on YouTube this morning because there were several clips of the Burmese monks' protest. This is in stark contrast to not long ago when atrocities happened here that no one knew of because no one saw them outside of "the black hole of Asia." Therefore, there was no intervention, and the terror got worse. Thank you, you brave souls who smuggled these clips out of Burma this week.

Many of you won't understand why this protest is such a big deal. I don't have the time to tell you about all of the starvation orders put on villages-especially the Christian tribes in the north of Burma. (A starvation order is when the junta comes in and says, "If you grow food here, we will kill you, your children, and burn your crops." The junta would rather they grow poppy, or die off.) Or about the thousands of political prisoners, the mass shootings in the streets during previous attempts at peaceful protest against the ruling regime, the rape, child labor, the stealing of children for the purpose of bolstering child soldier forces, the poverty, denial of democracy, etc...


Or how I've been followed in the streets of Rangoon, forced out of country for evangelizing, had the film ripped out of my camera, stopped in taxis and on foot for interrogations by plain clothes officers, been taken into "safe" rooms at tea shops so spies couldn't overhear conversations I was having with Burmese friends; how I've had all of my comings and goings carefully recorded by spies around the inns I stay in while in country, or how we would walk to church one at a time, staggered over the course of an hour, so as not to give away the church location and thus put its members at risk. I would classify all of these incidents as mere annoyances, however; nothing that even compares to what happens to the Burmese who don't have a little blue passport in their pocket.

Protest against the ruling militia in Burma has meant, and may still mean, suicide at worst; torture at best. What these monks are doing is the bravest thing I've seen done in a very long time.

The people's leader, Aung San Suu Kyi, who the junta has kept under house arrest since her election as president two decades ago, emphatically calls for peaceful overthrow of the regime. No commandos in the night, no weapons, no violence; simply use peaceful defiance for freedom as Ghandi utilized it against the British and Martin Luther King marched with in Alabama and Washington. The problem is that when the people have done this in the past-peacefully protested-they have been shot down in the streets. But now, for the fourth day in a row, hundreds on monks are peacefully protesting in the streets and claim they will not stop until "the enemy of the people" is removed from power.


So, why am I nervous? Well, I wonder if the regime will shoot at the monks too. It's doubtful; the militia is Buddhist as well, as is most of Burma. But everyday that these videos are released, more and more unrobed citizens are marching. There is more and more applause from civilians on the sidewalk. There are more ordinary people with children at their sides standing on their porches in protest like the monks asked them to do, more and more wearing yellow for Suu Kyi, more and more defiance in the streets. This in a country where groups of more than five are forbidden by the junta's law in order to prevent organized protest.

I'm nervous because these monks are marching right in front of the little house church I work with. I have friends and former students supporting this protest. What will happen to them?

I pray that they know that eternal freedom cannot be taken away from them. As the Christian song goes, "They can have my body, but they can't have me. Take away my sight and still my soul will sing..." nothing the militia does to them can take away what Christ can give, or has given, them. With that knowledge, I pray they have the endurance to continue marching peacefully in the face of the militia's weapons, to bring change and hope and life and the blessing of earthly freedoms, like freedom of speech and religion, to their starving land. If they succeed here, it will prove once again to the world at a time when such a reminder is desperately needed, that change-even to the point of government overthrow- must not always be proceeded by violence. That hope has me on the edge of my seat.
The Burmese people have never been as brave as now, so outspoken and defiant against the horrors they've endured. I'm tired of scanning lists of political prisoners online and finding the names of former students of mine. I'm tired of worrying about the safety of the members of the little house church. I'm tired of wondering why I didn't get a Christmas card from this or that student, like I usually do. Frankly, I'm tired of praying for compassion, peace, and humanity in Burma. But I will continue to do so until the regime's clenched fist lets go of my Buddhist friends and sisters and brothers in Christ who were blessed to be born in Myanmar at such a time as this.

See the links on the sidebar under Aung San Suu Kyi's picture for more information about how you can support the plight of the Burmese people.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Life Books

I know I've waited too long to update when I'm getting private emails from people requesting that I update the blog... Sorry. It's been busy.

I've been asked about Life Books by several people at adoption conferences, online, and from friends, so I'll use this post to address the issue.

A Life Book is basically the baby book for the adopted child. Any adopted child can have a Life Book, even if he or she did not enter into your family as a baby.

Life Books differ from baby books in that they include more adoption related pages. Any adoptive mother or father who has shopped Target for a baby book knows what I'm talking about. I don't need the "The Day We Found Out We Were Pregnant" page, the "The Story of Your Birth" page or the "Do I Look Like Mommy or Daddy" page. Though I DO need a "My Birth Family Family Tree" page, a "Why You Chose Me" page, and a "Tell Me About My Nationality" page. There are many other nuances that vary between a traditional baby book and a Life Book as well. For example, if your adopted child come home at age two, like J. did, then you don't want a blank page in a baby book asking for information about first smile, first steps, first words and first birthday parties. It's depressing enough knowing that we've missed these treasured moments with our children without adding a blank baby book page to the mix, and so blantantly reminding our children that much of their past lives are a mystery.

Life Books specific to adoption can be purchased online at




The Tapestry website is THE place to buy adoption related children's books as well. They even have board books for the little ones that address adoption clearly, simply, and positively. Check out classics like "A Mother for Choco", "A Blessings from Above" or "Brown Like Me." Those are some of J. and C.'s favorites.

Back to Life Books (also called Memory Books)... You can purchase one from the above mentioned sites. Some of them even have scrapbooking kits with adoption themes that will give you more creativity than a pre-formulated Life Book will. Though for some, having most of the work done for us is a bonus, not a hinderance upon one's creativity! I bought a Life Book for J. while I was waiting for him to come home. Eventually, I scrapped it and went out to buy a blank scrap book. I'm the kind of person that has to have FULL artistic freedom, and a pre-arranged Life Book didn't allow me that. I did the same thing for C., and I have begun work on baby number three's book. No, it's never too early to start one! Pages like, "What is Adoption?" "Why We Chose Africa" (or wherever), "Your Adoptive Family Family Tree" and "The Journey to You" can all be started before the child comes home.
Some of you are waiting a LONG time for God to bring your child home. His timing is the best timing, and that is easier to remember when we're busy. So, while you wait, start a Life Book for your new child. It is invaluable for him or her to have information about his or her past, choosing, purpose, and journey. He can look at the Life Book alone when he's ten years old if he doesn't feel up to having a face-to-face conversation yet. He can refer to it for school projects-yes, the dreaded Family Tree project.... He can pick it up when he's a teen-ager and read pages like "About My Homeland" when his normal identity crisis has reached new peaks, and he's searching for a sense of self. Life Books spur conversation, instill identity, and remind your child that he or she is here for a purpose. Not to mention, he can see that moments are, and always have been, treasured with that child, whenever they get to be celebrated, just as with any other child.
J. loves to get out his Life Book and bring it to me to read to him. From conversations through this book alone he knows that he grew in Mommy L.'s tummy. He didn't grow in Mommy's tummy. Both Mommies love him very much. Mommy L. went to Heaven with Jesus (I included a whole separate page titled, "What Is Heaven" for this); he knows he needed a new Mommy. I'm his new Mommy, Tim is his new Daddy, and we will be his Mommy and Daddy forever. No matter what. Like these simple sentences, write your Life Book at a child's level so he or she can read it and understand it.Our most precious Life Book moment was when we were looking at a picture on the "My Life at the Orphanage" page. There is a picture of J. on a blanket in the orphanage nursery surrounded by 23 babies-all significantly younger than him. J. is turned to face the camera and look very sad. We were looking at this page a few weeks ago and J. said to me, "Mommy, J. sad. J. miss C." Though at the time of the photograph J. didn't know C. even existed, but they are so close now that J. just KNEW that's why he was sad then. He didn't have his brother with him.
Is there information NOT to include in a Life Book? I'd say, "yes", but that's up to you. There are definately things that I left out of both J. and C.'s books; things that are better discussed when they are much older. Things that relatives and friends don't need to read about when they pick up the Life Book at a family reunion. Things that protect the privacy of your child.
"Your life and your journey is POSITIVE and God directed "was an ongoing theme in the books I did.

There's a lot more I could add here, but I'll leave it at that. If you have questions about Life Books, refer to the above links or ask me in the comments section below. Happy Life Booking!



Wednesday, August 29, 2007

The Reinvention of the Wheel


Isn't it odd how life can roll full circle? I remember listening to U2's Joshua Tree and the Rattle and Hum album until the wee hours of the morning when I was a teenager. It was a cassette, actually, and I'd lie in bed with my mon's old lava lamp, think about the famine in Ethiopia, those horrible commericials with flies in childrens' eyes and wonder why more isn't done "in the name of love"? It broke my heart. So, I went to Jamaica to serve on my first foreign mission. That broke my heart even more. Old women without arms and legs shouldn't have to rock in a rusted baby crib like Weeble Wobbles in rags with chickens pecking the bugs off of the floor. And that poor woman should not have had the joy to be able to sing Amazing Grace with me. Not when I was whining about the hot water running out in the shower at the hotel that morning. People were still dying. People were still living unequally. My heart was still broken.

I've learned recently from a friend that I could be described as a passionate person. When my heart is convicted, pricked of a need, an injustice, a desire to love, I have to do it. I have to go; I have to put out the fire. I have to heal my heart ache. Don't think I'm wonderful. This can be what is known in Shakespearean literature as a "tragic flaw".

Flash forward twenty years... Ethiopia's famine is over, though the land and people haven't recovered from its effects. Three years ago, I laid on my bed in Phnom Penh with the newest U2 album (a CD this time)-How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb-while finishing paperwork to assist on a medical mission several hours away the next morning. Pills for pain, dressings for landmine wounds that won't heal; rice for starving babies, numbers to hand out becuase only 150 people can be seen... All the while listening to Bono scream to God and people:
Lay down
Lay down your guns
All your daughters of Zion
All your Abraham sons
I don’t know if I can make it
I’m not easy on my knees
Here’s my heart and you can break it
I need some release, release, release
We need Love and peace
Love and peace

Sometimes I want to scream for release.

Somewhere in Ethiopia a soul is carrying a child that will become my son or daughter because she will die of AIDS, malaria, or can't find food. That breaks my heart. I don't want this to be a depressing post; I'm just expressing some thoughts I've had lately. I'll try to write something more humorous next week. I'm not drepressed; just not content with all parts of the planet. But I do hope you are passionate about something, and that that passion helps make the world a more equal place. I know this video has been around-especially among those interested in African issues, but it seemed appropriate to post it today. Just sharing a little of my passion (peace, Bono, ending hunger, establishing global equality, etc...) with you. And maybe when this wheel makes full circle again in twenty years all people will have been provided with a $10.00 mosquito net; they'll be a cure for AIDS that pharmaceutical companies choose to share with the poor; there will be no more orphans in Ethiopia, and my heart will find release.

Friday, August 24, 2007

The Productivity that Sprouts from a Dead Modem

I've been on sabbatical from the internet lately. Though not my choice (faulty hard drive, faulty modem, some other mystery problems...) it has been surprisingly pleasant to have the keyboard removed from my fingertips. There have only been a couple of real inconveniences about the situation, like helping Tim with his final graduate school paper of the semester and updating the blog, but other than that, there hasn't been anything that either can't wait or can't be solved using the...what's that invention called? Oh yes, the telephone.

I've gotten a lot done with my computer unplugged. During the first round of problems, I took C.'s crib down and set up a toy shelving unit in their room. And I painted a giraffe on the wall to measure their heights. Yes, it went just like that in my head: "Self, what WILL you do today without a computer?" "I think I'll paint a giraffe on the boys' wall." "Great idea, self." And here it is:





The boys started preschool this week. Can I get a "Halleluiah"? They only go there three mornings a week-9 hours a week-but what a blessed 9 hours it is! The planets have re-aligned and I have been able to get the tags for my car, go to the doctor, fill-out adoption papers, bathe alone, sit in a Starbucks parking lot with a grande extra hot hazelnut mocha and think, "Holy cats, it's quiet in here." Beautiful. And then I rush back to preschool, worried about whether or not C. ran out of diapers, if any ruthless toddler pummeled one of them, if they obeyed their teacher, how much paint they ate; I scoop them up, hug them, kiss them like they've been rescued from a burning building and tell them honestly about how much I missed them. I'm pathetic. Or just really in love with my babies. Here's another pic of their first day of school, showing off their new backpacks. C. was sooooo excited to go to school. He could have cried a little....just one tear would have been fine with me. I got enough tears from J. to make up for it, though and by the second day of school they were both running off to their classrooms with glee.

I also finished J.'s baby book since the demise of my internet connection. Yep-that is a year and a half late; go ahead and reprimand me now. But it is finally done, and I will do another post on that later.

In addition, I've reconnected with old friends via the...telephone, begun work on our homestudy for "new baby" (as the boys call him), started working with a travel agent (via telephone) on travel plans for our trip to Africa which is also serving as Tim and I's ten year wedding anniversary trip. Tim and I spent many hours in negotiation about a new job, and we are so blessed to have been given, "ordered" rather, a new job that meets BOTH of our desires. Those of you follwoing this saga know what a relief this is, and what a blessing it is to know that God listens and provides. Tim will be home much more with this new job, and the signing bonus puts us on a lifestyle that we feel strongly to be God's will for us-debt free with money invested for the future. Certainly, another Halleluiah is due here.

I'm currently at the county library using the internet, apparently to become a once or twice a week ritual for me until my computer is feeling up to par again. But feel free to leave comments and I'll read them when I can. Tim checks the blog everyday to see the boys. Or better yet, pick up the phone and call me. Human voices are nice. Have fun choosing joy this week,

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Doss-ee-A

(Buzayan, 6, from Jinka, Ethiopia. Photo from the Bowers Museum. For more photos from the Bridges to Understanding Exhibit, go here: http://www.bowers.org/exhibits/exhibit_bridges3.asp)

Doss-ee-A. That's how you pronounce the word that means, "the big packet of papers that goes overseas when one is adopting a child." In addition to the dossier requirements, there are adoption agency requirements, and United States Customs and Immigration Services (USCIS) requirements. Sometimes these papers overlap, or more often, three copies are needed and one goes to each place. Put together, the requirements for these three entitites are often lazily called "the dossier" (even though technically the dossier is only the legal part that goes overseas), and very often referred to as "the paperchase." Many of you have asked, "How is it coming with the Ethiopian adoption?" Well, this is where we are with baby #3's adoption: the paperchase.

One COULD complete the paperchase in 2-3 mon. Most families are very anxious and do get it done in about three months. We are taking our time with ours, however. Some parts of the dossier can't be completed until Tim gets home. And frankly, we aren't in THAT much of a hurry to bring home a new baby! We'd like to get Caleb out of diapers first, at least. So, we're looking at about five months of paperchasing.

What's involved in this paperchase, you ask? I'll list some of it below. But I can tell you that your best friend during this time is your notary! We are so blessed to have a sweet, wonderful, accomodating woman (yes, she will have to go with us to the doctor for notary signatures...) at church who is our notary. THANK YOU, KATRINA!!!! Not having a reliable, accessible notary was our biggest headache with J.'s adoption, and we are so blessed to have Katrina this time around!

In no particular order, here is some of what is involved in the paperchase for an international adoption:
1. Applications to an adoption agency. (Deposit/application fees)

2. Letters of recommendation including pastoral, family, friends, and work. THANK YOU, R. for driving down, with a toddler, a couple of states to have your letter of recommendation notarized in my state so that it passes through the state department check at the end of the paperchase process. I love our 3-4 day visits! You are a sister, a best friend, a Godsend in my life! And Jason, when I get yours at the end of August I'll have just as nice things to say about you! ;)

3. Bank statements from all accounts going back six months.

4. W-2's for the previous three years.

5. Letters from insurance companies stating that a "pre-adoptive child receives full medical benefits beginning the moment he/she is placed in your care."

6. Full physical exams, plus lab work. (fee for what insurance won't cover)

7. Autobiographies

8. Psychological examinations (possible fees)

9. The I-600A (the initial application to adopt an orphan, filed with USCIS) BIG fee attached.

10. Current passports (our were expiring next year, so more fees...)

11. Criminal background clearance from the State Bureau of Investigation (fee)

12. Fingerprints for the State Bureau of Investigation done at the local court house (fee)

13. Fingerprints for USCIS done at their office (big fee)

14. Pictorial essay with captions

15. At least ten logged hours of adoption classes/research/preparation to meet the new Hague Convention rules.

16. Copies of drivers' liscenses

17. Extra passport photos (fee)

18. Privacy Disclosure legal forms

19. Pre-placement/post placement Adoption Agreement legal forms

20. Financial statement (assets/debt/ savings, stocks and bonds, etc...)

21. Certified copies of marriage, death and birth certificates (fees)

22. The Home Study (at least 4 visits with a social worker, one of your home.) This is the big packet that evaluates you, your marriage, your children, your home, your medical, your financial habits, adoption preparedness, intimacies, fears, joys, annoyances and grievances. -BIG fee. A copy of this goes all the way up the chain from the home study agency to USCIS to Addis Ababa.

23. A bit more, and the bit varies by country, but I won't bore you with the details any longer. The Philippines required a dream anaylsis....weird...

23. Notarize everything. (Have I said, "Thank you, Katrina?")

Make copies of everything. Save everything. Things will get lost, and when tax time rolls around the next year, you'll want every receipt you can find to utilize as much of the nearly $11,000 federal adoption tax credit as possible.

I'm not complaining, mind you. Human traffiking is ugly and real. Did anyone see the Dateline special the other night on human traffiking from the Philippines to Malaysia? Many checks and balances are needed within the system to guarantee that legitimate orphans (NOT children who are coersed, bought, sold or borrowed from their birth families...) are placed in safe, capable homes. And honestly, when you take your adoption dossier checklist and go down it one point by one point, it isn't so bad. Compared to nine months of pregnancy, blurred vision, cavities, labor, delivery, stretch marks, the untamable baby tummy, and the realization that you passed your grotesquely large third toe on to another human being...what's a bit of paperwork? Especially when you leisurely give yourself five or six months to do it, and are content with the two blessings you already have. For today anyway.

Monday, August 06, 2007

The last of the summer exodus pics:

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Congratulations, Steve and Melissa!


Anyone need a financial advisor? I know a good one! That isn't really the point of this long overdue post, though. We just got back from our nearly two month "midwest tour," and we're all a bit exhausted, not quite adjusted to the time change, and overwhelmed with all that has to be done here on the homefront. But bit by bit, things will get back to normal. One of the many wonderful events of the summer however was the announcement of Steve's engagement! He and Melissa have been dating awhile, and we are so excited for them.

We LOVE her, and I'm so blessed to be able to add this wonderful woman to my list of fabulous sister-in-laws! Congratulations, Steve and Melissa! This picture of you two at the museum cracks me up! I know you'll love it that I posted it here! ;Here's some recent pics of Steve with the family this summer:

P.S. No word yet on when the big day will be, but I know they're leaning toward a private island ceremony-just the two of them, the waves, some orchids, and maybe a ukulele...

Friday, July 20, 2007

Brothers

Monday, July 16, 2007

Thoughts from a Combine

Last week, Judah, Caleb and I rode in the combine harvesting mom's last wheat field of the year. I was struck during our time there by how God provides through the earth, how orderly and fulfilling is His creation; crops, seasons, rain, animals, fruits... beautiful as well as functional. I couldn't help thinking while sitting in the combine, watching the massive machine turn agile corners, though still leaving bundles of wheat behind in neat triangles at the end of every row, of this verse to the Jews from the book of the Law.


9 " 'When you reap the harvest of your land, do not reap to the very edges of your field or gather the gleanings of your harvest. 10 Do not go over your vineyard a second time or pick up the grapes that have fallen. Leave them for the poor and the alien. I am the LORD your God."
-Lev. 19:9-10; Deut. 24: 19




What mere leftover of God's abundance have I offered the stranger, the orphan, the widow, or the poor lately? Surely I have more to give than fallen fruit.
(More pics to come from this leg of the trip later)

Friday, July 06, 2007

Our Independence Day

Monday, July 02, 2007

Get Down, Get Down...

Wild and crazy times on our mid-west tour! Actually, the above picture was taken at Vacation Bible School last week, so not that crazy! Tim's brother is the education minister at the church here at Tim's mom's place, and he conducted VBS. The boys had a lot of fun in their classes, singing songs, and making crafts. Caleb got to go to the water carnival Friday night that closed out VBS, and from what I hear he jumped until he dropped in the moon jumper. Judah and I went to a friend's wedding in Missouri for the weekend. Judah was SO well behaved. He met some new little friends, and soaked up all of the one-on-one Mommy time. I think he was overdue for some of that. I enjoyed catching up with old friends from college and having a much needed mini-break. It was a blast to see who was balding, who was reproducing, who lived where, did what, and dreamed of achieving this that and the other. We need more reunions like that. I drug Judah off of the dance floor at a barn dance after the wedding at 1:00am Sunday morning (that boy's got some moves...), and we came back to Tim's mom's house after a short sleep. In fact, when he woke up after about 6 hours of sleeping, he said, "I want to dance more!" I wish I took pictures of Judah dancing with the beautiful bride. She carried him and danced with him for a long time. It was precious. If anybody did gets pics of that, send them to me. We're off to my mom's on the farm later this week for some bonfires and tractor riding. We are so blessed to have dear friends that span decades and family to turn to in order to help make the time go faster when Tim is away. Happy 4th!

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Our trip to Paw Paw and MiMi's

Friday, June 15, 2007

Ethiopia, huh? So what about...

I didn't think I'd need to address this for awhile, but since it has come up many times this week in conversation with friends and family, and strangers for that matter, I feel I should address it now. Karen, another woman who blogs about her Ethiopian adoption process, called her post on this topic, "The Elephant in the Living Room of African Adoption." That about sums it up, I think, and that elephant's name is:


I could just refer you to Karen's blog because it is so well written. In fact I will: see my side bar where it says, "Karen: Ethiopian adoption." But I will address it here for my readers as well.

When one thinks of problems in Africa, HIV is paramount. HIV creates orphans. (Be aware though that a leading way babies and children contract HIV in Africa is through shared immunization needles at sub-par, underfunded clinics! These children are innocent victims of this disease, as are so many of the women who contract it from their unfaithful husbands. If interested, watch the film Yesterday for a greater understanding of the real face of AIDS in Africa. http://www.hbo.com/films/yesterday/ )
Anyway, the natural question is then: We are adopting an African orphan; therefore, how will HIV affect us?

Hopefully, it won't. Tim and I do not feel that it is our mission right now to parent HIV positive children. Tim said that if it were just he and I, he would strongly consider it since HIV is a death sentence in Ethiopia for these innocents. People born HIV positive in America at the time of modern antivirals are living into their twenties now. There is no reason not to beleive that these people will live long lives. Too bad we don't share some of these life saving drugs with dying children in Africa. . .but that's for another post.

The reality is that we have two very little boys at home. Though ALL children should be taught by their parents, "If you see blood, find an adult," that doesn't mean a toddler will remember such a lesson in a bout of rough housing. There were HIV positive children in the school at which I taught here in America. HIV is all around us. Thankfully, it isn't the flu and cannot be spread through day to day contact. I repeat: It IS NOT THE FLU and CANNOT BE SPREAD THROUGH DAY TO DAY CONTACT. It is transfered through blood. That said, J. fell down a hill at the park last week and scraped his knee. C. was there immediately to kiss his open wound and give him a big hug. Inherant sympathy, the pure God loving through us, rules over discretion with two year olds, so we are not requesting an HIV positive baby.

I've learned after much research and talking with our family physician lately that only 25% of babies born to HIV positive mothers contract the disease.

75-80% of infants test negative for the disease once they reach 18 months of age. It is the mother's antibodies still in the infant that false test positive in the infant prior to 18 months of age.

So what if you adopt a baby under the age of 18 months? How will you know if he or she is positive or negative? The HIV-1 DNA, Qualitative PCR test. In simple speak, this procedure tests the infant's DNA for HIV, not just his blood. Therefore, the mother's antibodies are not interfering with the results, and one can know if an infant is actually HIV positive or not. It is 99.----% accurate. This test is done on all African orphans hoping to be adopted, and it is done AGAIN when the child is preparing to get his or her visa to enter the US. We will know before we accept the referral, and definately before the child comes home, whether or not he or she is HIV positive.

Let me pause now to address a couple of things. We believe that God puts families together. Whether you birth a child, or God in his omnipotence places a baby from one continent into your arms on another continent, His will is done. Remember we requested a sibling group from the Philippines three years ago, one member of which was to be a baby under 15 months of age at referral. That's what US Immigration and the Philippines approved us for-a sibling group from the Philippines. What God gave us was-on the SAME DAY mind you-a referral for a domestic infant and a Filipino toddler. There was our sibling group; the group God had intended, not one that we could have ever imagined. So, what if we accept a referral for an HIV negative child this time around only to find out that three months later, after loving this child from afar for three months, considering this child our child for months, praying and fasting for God to send us the child He has intended for us for a year, we learn that the 99.----% accurate test was wrong, and actually our child is HIV positive. What will we do?

What would you do if you birthed a child that had severe mental retardation, or some other horrible disease? Some people condemn adoption with phrases like, "You never know what you're going to get with an adopted kid." Well, I'm not even going to get into all the reasons why that's a ridiculous statement because I know we all know families who did everything right and still birthed a special needs child. Amazing,God fearing families whose birth children grew up to be challenges, so to speak. It's true, you don't know what you're going to get. None of us do. But God does.
As Tim and I have discussed it in the past, an internationally adopted child is your child at acceptance of referral. Some people consider the child theirs at first meeting, at first step into America, at finalization. For me, I'm committed after reviewing all of the available medicals, history and pictures, and I write a letter to the foreign authority saying, "We are accepting this referral as our son/daughter." That's the birth. The months after that working with US Immigration to get the baby home is, well, just the looonnngggg ride home from the hospital.

As Karen so eloquently put it in her blog, "God doesn't call the equipped. He equips the called." We are confident that God will send us the children He has intended to be in our family as He has marveously and perfectly done twice before, and He will equip us with bodies and minds to handle it. There were surprises with both J. and C. and I guess any child that has ever been born. In conclusion, HIV is not a reason not to adopt from Africa. It is far more likely a woman would birth a child here in America with a medical need than a child test false negative on the HIV DNA test. FAR more likely, so as I see it...all the more reason to adopt your children.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

The Big Reveal

(Forget 100 hits every 2-3 days; we were getting over 100 hits A DAY for awhile, so I will keep you in suspense no longer!)


I'm thinking of a country. . .

*that houses 77 million people,

*yet, nearly 10% of all newborns die in infancy.


*The rest live a life expectancy of less than 50 years.


*1.5 million of them are living with HIV.

*It is one of, if not THE, oldest country on the planet. Some refer to it as "the cradle of humanity." In fact, Lucy, the upright walking, somewhat human looking skeleton was found here.

*Its language is Semitic based. No one knows exactly where the strong Jewish influence here originates. Some say it is from Moses' wife of this likely heritage. Others trace it to when the tribe of Dan migrated south after the split of Israel and Judah. Others say it began with the contraversial offspring of King Solomon and the Queen of Sheba-a dynasty which they believe lasted until its overthrow in 1974. Today, there are about 80 different nationalities here.


*One of the most popular theories with archeologists holds that the Arc of the Covenant is here, under the church St. Mary of Zion.


*In modern times, seventeen years of civil war from 1974-1991, combined with the Walla famine and universal drought, left thousands orphaned, millions dead, infractructure destroyed, and economy ruined.


*Therefore, it is tied with Burundi for the lowest GDP in the world-$90 and is the third poorest country in the world.


*This country has 5 MILLION orphans, and MSN reported in 2004 that adoptable babies are becoming the country's #1 export. If ever there was a country where there is a need for adoptive families, it's here.



*The adoption fees for this country are some of the lowest available, and referrals for children are quick.


You probably have guessed by now that baby #3 will come from . . . . . . . da da DA.........................Ethiopia!


We were recomended an agency, Love Basket Inc., by Christian Adoption Services-the agency that facilitated J. and C.'s adoptions. Ethiopia is a new program for Love Basket, but one family has already brought home their six month old little boy.


Our prayerful request: a healthy baby of either gender-well under 12 months old at time of travel.

We can't complete our dossier until Tim returns in the fall, but a referral is expected within six months of dossier arrival in Addis Ababa. Travel comes about 3 months after acceptance of referral. Though escorts are available for Ethiopia, Tim and I are GREATLY looking forward to our trip to Africa to meet and bring home the new baby next year. Grandparents-get ready to watch two very excited big brothers while Mom and Dad get to visit The Continent!


Here are some blog links to three "cyber friends" I've made lately who are also in the process of, or have completed, an Ethiopian adoption. You can see pictures and read of their journeys.

www.5mcckids.blogspot.com

http://mysite.verizon.net/resotl5g/id20.html

http://eliasbrown.blogspot.com/

Love Basket=http://www.lovebasket.org/AP/Ethiopia.htm


Blessings to all, and thank you for following along this journey with us. If you have questions or comments, please leave them in the comments (below) and I will try to address them in the next post.

Monday, June 04, 2007

Adoption Chronicles, Volume 3, Chapter 2

Over 200 hits in five days-I'd say you all are a little curious! Thanks for participating in this journey with us. We treasure your support and encouraging words. Well, if you aren't one of those aforementioned 200 people, you'll need to read chapter one below before continuing. As for the rest of you, here is chapter two:

Tim and I have always found the India/Tibet/Nepal region of the world fascinating. It's right in between where he and I have lived and worked, Afghanistan and SE Asia respectively, and combines the beauty, culture, and landscape of both worlds. It seeps of tales of Mt. Everest attempts, Shangri La, Bombay silk, bangle, and cardamom markets, and chanting Buddhist monks. We were actually planning on a trip there for our ten year wedding anniversary in 2009. It seemed natural to look here for our next child. Though Indian adoption laws require that either the father or mother be of Indian decent to adopt a child under four years old, and there are naturally no adoptions allowed through Tibet right now, we qualified to adopt from Nepal.

Amidst its beauty, Nepal is the poorest country in Asia. It has the highest child trafficking rates in the world, with its little girls especially being "exported" to India and Malaysia. Clearly, there is a pressing need for adoptive families in Nepal. The Ministry of Women and Children's Welfare in Nepal says that if a family already has a boy in the home, they must adopt a girl. So, despite the fact that Nepal adoptions require two trips (who's complaining about two trips to our dream vacation spot...),we were psyched to bring home a baby girl from Katmandu.
However, literally the same week we made this decision, the new minister at the Ministry of Women and Children in Nepal decided to suspend international adoptions until he became more acquainted with his job. As a result of his examinations, a couple of weeks later, he decided to stop all international adoptions until Nepal conformed to the Hague requirements on international adoption. Such an undertaking, from one of the poorest places on earth, is quite time consuming. Since Nepal wasn't currently a part of the Hague Convention for international adoption, they weren't complying to the checks and balances within that system, and stories of children being stolen, persuaded, or bought from birthfamilies began clanging in our hearts. Tim and I cringe at the thought of unknowingly adopting a child who had been stolen from his or her birthfamily. And who knows if we'd even qualify for Nepal once it reopened, if it reopened, so why submit papers now-and the fees that go with them? Cambodia has been suspended for these reasons since what-2004? Still, children are sitting in orphanages there, stuck, waiting on the government to produce a transparent program.

So, I must say, for all of you who thought it was Nepal, you're wrong! ;) After much prayer, we feel great peace in putting Nepal on hold until the new rules are ratified. Supposedly, the draft of the new rules state that a family can adopt a child of either gender (even if both genders are already in the home), and the limit of two children in the family is broadened. If it's God will, we'll qualify and adopt from there later. With Tim and I's love for that region, how could we not!? In the meantime, we pray that Nepal moves swiftly to comply with the Hague so that its children are protected from child traffickers, and so that the more than 400 families who were in the Nepal program when it suspended can get their children home soon.

As a result of this, we were back at square one in the search for the right country and the right agency. Where in the world IS baby #3???? I'll tell you in the next post!

By the way, if you're interested in adopting a child from Nepal-and I STRONGLY recommend it once it reopens-here's the link for a fabulous agency. Ask for Eric. All of the children shown in the post are Nepali. http://www.faithadopt.org/home/programs/nepal